Margo's Middle Finger

My place to write like no one is reading…

He’s Dead

Are my folowers still out there?  It’s been about 9 months since I last updated this blog.  So much has happened that I’ll need to write about, but for now, just know this: KingPieceofShit is dead. I’ve since shut down my main domain and again, ALMOST, deleted this blog.  But, something has always kept me from deleting it entirely.  So, this blog remains.  Margo still has work to do. So, do […]

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I am not my story.

I’m more than my story.  That’s was my reasoning a few hours ago, when I considered deleting this blog.  It’s been awhile since I’ve wrote, but many UGLY things have resurfaced from my past. But, here’s the thing.  Even though these awful memories are popping up out of nowhere, I have less fear.  I feel safe here now.  This is precisely why they are popping up, I’m sure. I opened […]

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F%^#%ing FORTY!

I don’t know what happened.  What year is it?  Yesterday was my birthday.  I turned 40. I wasn’t worried, or overly depressed about the age.  Hell, I just kind of wanted to have a nice quiet day at home.  But, somehow it turned out to be the worst fucking day of my life.  Okay, that’s a little bit dramatic, but still. I completely broke down….bawling, snotting, the whole shebang.  Mr. […]

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Pestilent Preschoolers

My life is loud.  Dangerous.  Full of terror and rage.  To keep the peace in this environment is impossible.  “Whoa”, my 3 year old, is hanging on to the terrible two’s with a vengeance.  She has to compete with both a 4 year old and a 1 year old.  She’s loud, obnoxious, belligerent, violent, impulsive, oppositional…and the list of adjectives go on and on. We’re born into this world somewhat […]

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Red Alert: Medical Mayhem

So there I sat, TRYING to get an RX filled for Ambien.   Well, the generic for Ambien. I hand the RX over to the pharmaceutical tech, who promptly marches right back to me and says “It’s dated for the 8th, we can’t fill it until then!” I look at the RX.  My doctor, who writes with one of those ink pens that kind of bleed and drag, dated the […]

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Aspergers and Developmental Delays

If you’ve been following my recent sadness over my daughter’s confirmed diagnosis, you know that I was starting to lose hope, and was dealing with the acceptance of the impact of her diagnosis.  Basically, I was coming to terms with the fact that my 16 year old daughter has the maturity of a 10 year old, and that she may not become independent until her late 20’s if ever. I’ve […]

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Shit on my Day

Recently, I did something unusual.  I went out, in a fairly crowded place, by myself, FOR myself.  There was an event in town that I wanted to photograph, and I took a moment, for myself, at 5 in the morning. I’m rarely out of the house at sunrise.  I can’t think of one reason to get out of bed that early ON PURPOSE.  But, I was excited to take photographs […]

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Not Very Touching

Okay, listen, it’s 8 days before my menses, so maybe I’m feeling a bit sorry for myself.  But here’s the deal, I can think of people who have made a positive impact in my life in some way.  Most of the time, its a very brief impact.  Usually, it’s when I’m in a dire state of emergency and am in desperate need of help.  These situations don’t come along very […]

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Project Badass Day 1

So, today is day 1 of Project Badass.  I still find it a bit surreal that I went from not being motivated AT ALL to now I’m ready to go full on – balls to the wall – git ‘r done style.  I took a week or so to start creating a plan for myself.  The basic food structure resembles Chris Powell’s carb cycling Turbo Cycle from his choose more, […]

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Aspergers and Motherhood

Aspergers.  Autism Spectrum Disorder.  I’ve shared before that I knew my oldest daughter has Aspergers, and I’ve known for quite awhile.  Up until the past year or so, we didn’t necessarily need professional help to get through the challenges we face.  I have been her advocate, and I have stayed tuned in to her every interaction.  I have logically taught her the skills to avoid offending others, and the rules […]

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